I don’t want to take anything away from those who have challenged themselves with physical endeavors. But I feel inner tests of fortitude are far more challenging and are true tests of ones character. I’m not saying that a marathon isn’t a challenge. I just feel this mental marathon I’ve been living through this past seventeen months is a lot more grueling. At least a marathon can be finished in a day. What I’m struggling through right now I have no clue when I’ll see the finish line.
And it does take mental courage to continue to have faith that my guy will find a new job one of these days. That we will be able to have the life we can only talk about right now. That we can get out of this holding pattern we are in and be able to live.
So I have to give myself other finish lines to shoot for while I’m praying to see the end of this long race I’ve been running. I know none of these smaller tasks I’m setting before myself will be easy either, but at least there something that will help keep me grounded, so I can try to keep building my inner strength.